Your suffering is your medicine

Sometimes your stuckness is your medicine

You feel like you’re running around in circles, watching others move right past you…

You have let go of your power, you are waiting for something to happen outside of you for things to change

You are still where you were 3 years ago because you haven’t claimed your birth identity. You are operating from fear instead of love

You focus on what is going wrong over and over again, what you’re lacking, giving your energy to things in your psyche that literally draw out your energy.

Your energy is your currency
You are literally buying your experiences in each moment

You are agreeing with your mind every time it brings in assumptions about you that are not empowering or lifting you up. You have a habit of downplaying what you want…

your heart is singing a different voice to your mind for a reason…you just have been listening to the wrong song for too long and breaking that habit will take a lot of resilience and determination…

(look at how potent the sun is, that’s you but you don’t believe it that’s why you ain’t moving anything)

You didn’t come into this lower room in one day…so don’t expect to climb out & completely let go of this room that quickly

Let the unwanted stories be medicine for your soul, that’s often the best wisdom.

Once you transcend, you will embody YOU differently
and then your shift in embodiment will be medicine for the world.

Enjoy the process, this version of you ain’t coming back but she won’t leave until you acknowledge her medicine and finish her crash course.

Private message me “Soul Babe” for help on how to transcend your current mental suffering. If you feel stuck and feel like you’re literally dying alive…I have been there, let’s dance!

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If you’re feeling disconnected and numb in this present moment and you have been here for such a long time…to the point you are experiencing inner turmoil. You’re probably running away from the truth and the fact that you are seeking love and appreciation outside of yourself.

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This is what hitting rock bottom taught me

(meeting my dense, shadow body)


I was dealing with inner criticism, self-doubt, shame, lack, fear, guilt, inferiority, struggle, powerlessness all at the same time for 5 years.

They call it the dark night of the soul

I woke up and realized I was living a lie.

I was disconnected from my soul.

I was living according to other people’s ideals on what success looks like.

I thought if I played along their script, I’ll finally feel loved, fulfilled and enough.

But we both know that’s backward.

Every action I took felt contrived, forced and so disconnected from my inner being.

I wasn’t in love with life.

I was chasing life.

I was never enough.

I did things so that I could prove my worth.

I created stories in my mind that boosted my ego, so that I could feel a false sense of superiority (others had to be smaller than me for me to feel successful)

I lived in my mind to the point that I bought every negative thought and experienced it.

I became disconnected from life because I was constantly living in the past…reliving the worst things that had happened.

I hadn’t laughed, genuinely in 5 years.

I created and planted roots in my dense body.

My constant worry and focus on death, losing people & imagining people thinking the worst of me was a constant blow to my quality of life

Of course naturally this spiral led me to a point where I couldn’t even bring myself to work, eat, socialize, pay bills. I was depressed to the point of debilitation.

The voices in my head were so loud!

My constant thought was, “who is gonna see me”, “what will people think”

I was giving away my power away over and over again.

I gave away my energy to things that didn’t fuel my soul.

I was killing myself slowly.


This was my crash course in dense,shadow body.

The other side of humans is often tuck away in the spiritual community because “positivity only and life is always perfect“


So toxic!

The truth is, humans are created to experience both sides of the spectrum of life.

Light and dark.

To be happy and to be sad!

To be overjoyed and to be disappointed.

To be erhh and to be yasss!

Life is about experiencing all that.



Your mountain is your inbuilt success story. Do not run away from it.

You overcome it not for you only, but for those who depend on you to succeed.

Naturally by overcoming you will become wiser, more resilient and you will experience your innate power and ability to overcome.



No matter how tough it gets, this is just a room you’re passing by…gathering your information and training for your journey ahead.


It’s all about how you look at things and how you interact with your past and present reality.


Always remember, no matter how bad it looks…it is just a room.

If it feels like you’re forcing to the point of burn out and disconnecting from yourself…it is the wrong path.



Crying is healthy.

Failures are healthy.

Starting all over again is healthy.

Being honest with yourself and still choosing to love & accept yourself despite where you are (vs. the internet peeps are) is healthy.


Also, No comparison allowed, that’s disrespect to your inner child. Choose to create boundaries around what you say and think about yourself, it will save you so much energy.

Choose to love you despite where you are and you will always be ok.

Your ego will try to shame you, humiliate you, make you feel inferior, feel bad and seduce you back to the spiral but you have to be sick and tired of being sick tired.

You have to say NO! I’m done with this!!!

Are you currently in a dense, dark body right now?

Let’s work together

I don’t bite!



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If you’re having a hard time connecting to your truth, the odds are you’re not being honest with yourself, your past. You’re suffering because you are living a lie.

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Stop trying to figure it all out

Life is a mystery

It is meant to be that way

How fun would knowing every single detail be

Imagine how stressful it was to know everything that was about to go down in that instant

Instead why not take advantage of the gift life has given you, to be carefree, to be allowing, to be surrendered, to be playful with life.

The mind wants to trick you to believe that you are separate from your desires…when you notice yourself continuously identifying with your thoughts-you will notice you tend to suffer more and are struggling with your presence.

When instead you identify yourself with your breath, your senses, your heartbeat, your awareness you free yourself from the mental cage you placed onto yourself.

Mental alchemy* only works effectively when you are grounded in your being, when you are truly connected to your I AM.

✨Are you ready to put in the work with your shadow, dense self so you can simmer down the mental suffering?

✨ Are you all in to shed off parts of you that are holding you back from enjoying life and connecting with your lightbody?

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ELDORADO might be calling you…

3 months, 3 Weeks & 3 Days of

-taking stock of what you’re being and choosing unconditional love & radical acceptance.

-noticing what is within your control and what isn’t

-purging versions of you that you don’t want to identify with anymore

– allowing your soul to flow you back to grace when you go back to identifying self with your mind

Private message me “ELDORADO” here or email me with the headline “ELDORADO” to see if you’ll be a great fit for the container.

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With service

The cycle of life: fear of lose

A co-created poem to help you transcend your current fears around death. Thank you Byron for your light!

The end does it really exist?

How could we define the end?

Death, lose, fear, gone forever…

Where is the forever, it is said that death is the beginning , if this is true…how do you?

Mystery, the unknown, not knowing, separation, holding on with not seeing anymore is scary

Fear. False evidence appearing real,

Demons & Gods-Intentions. Decide which is what.

Peace, serenity, relief, joy, bliss, trust, knowing, surrender, emotions bursting from within

Letting the heart lead, allowing the human experience to connect us all

Does Spirit end? Or does it just blends into the universal cosmic pool of stuff?

Swirling with all the embodiments of love…you, me, tree, squirrel, ocean, life, love…

Love, love, love. A word created from the heavens above or a human construct that struck.

Did it come from luck or…being…allowing our hearts to open to tell us the wisdom from the beginning of time.

Can you have beginnings with open endings? If this is so then the end can we ever know?

It does exist…it goes on and on and on expanding, constricting and expanding again into the unknown…

I guess we will never know until time brings us back into the now

If you’re currently having a hard time with transcending your density, your dark thoughts tap in…

I’m ready to alchemize my dense thoughts around the cycle of life

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